What do you expect from this travel to Nezhukuria?
and I read the story that there were some children who got the appearance of Mary and
I think a lot of people go there because they want to have some miracle to happen
and I think maybe it's a bit too over expected.
holiness of this place. What I expect, I just expect, I'm curious, I'm curious about people
who come from many different parts of the world.
and they come for one reason, to pray, and there is a big thing which keeps them together is the faith in God and the religion and I find it very interesting.
I expect some cleanness
Just go across the field and take the way left and you can see in dusk.
There is a pod board and we will see you in two hours.
Thank you.
Mm hmm. Mm hmm.
We'll see you next time.
How are you?
Agnes, my name is Dima. Nice to meet you.
Do you think people usually come here because they want some change or they have a particular problem and they want some solution for that?
I think that's when a person comes and the problem is without any curiosity.
something tragic just happened to them you know something that is really now
this is there they feel like this is the only chance now or never the most
amazing what instructs me about Medjagoria specifically it is
confessions that's just my personal opinion on that you know
And because I spoke to many priests and they say, you know, I don't need to see my degree,
I don't need to even work for the kids, I don't need to give you a concussion or I see the people confess their sins for so many years.
Such a win, you know, it's just impossible to live with this misfit.
Well, we are at the place where 29 years ago.
Ivanka and Maria was just walking here in the field it was all just covered
with a field of grapes, tobacco, corn and people were very simple people.
so anyway they decided to walk back to the village and which we are right now
located at the village that calls Biakovice so all of a sudden they walk back
They walked back here to the foot of the heel and all three of them looked up and they saw
the same thing.
They saw a lady who was making the motion, who was holding her purse to be like a child
and she was in light.
So six of them saw our lady together.
And it was a big shock for them. It was just they cried and they prayed and they were afraid at the same time.
Each one of them say that they have experienced such things that they have absolutely never thought to be experiencing or what they felt like they would never feel that ever.
Absolutely amazing. The first message was the message of peace.
Then we begin and as we are right now at the first station we see that Archangel
Gabriel he is announcing this beautiful news to our lady that she will conceive
by the power of the Holy Spirit and ever is in our lives. Whatever is troubling us
whatever is painful to us whatever is so hurting and
When it becomes to be so heavy, the cross becomes to be so heavy that we cannot see and everything is in darkness
But as always remember
come to us in the most gracious way, in the most faithful way, by giving us Your Son, Jesus.
Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
My name is Maria Milos, and I'm from Poland.
I live in Jerusalem, and I live in Israel, and I live in Israel, and I live in Haposlau.
This is the place where we have to go.
Thank you.
365 days a year, 29 years.
When you come to Mexico and you feel it, do I feel anything?
Because you can pray at home.
But when you come here, because a lot of people come here to pray.
So what do you feel here?
I understand to tell you that without any exaggeration I feel like the smallest little
child that came home where mother is like I feel that I'm on her arms that's what I
feel.
Don't look at it. It's okay.
It's okay.
I'm not going to ask you to speak English.
So it's going to be nice to have that happen.
I know you're coming to you
I need your prayer and your kiss.
If it's easy for you to...
You will note my head with oil, my cup overflows, only goodness and love will pursue me all
the days of my life.
I will dwell in the house of the Lord for years to come.
Thank you.
Okay, so, we'll just go inside.
They went on the streets to invite men to come and stay with them, to get a bite to eat maybe, to have a place to sleep.
Also to speak to them, to show them unconditional love, you know.
Mother of year never has anything from them.
Not money, not anything else, not anything from their families.
I want you to ask me for the time and the prayers.
These houses were built by us,
all the fencing, all the lambs.
We don't watch TV on a regular basis, okay?
We don't have cell phones, we don't have any money here,
and we don't have girls.
There may be a witness, okay?
That's our daily schedule.
We have masks a few times a week, Saturday nights at two.
We have Eucharistic adoration.
There's also time for personal adoration.
That's about what we're doing right now.
Before I came to the community, for me, I was a heroin addict for 15 years.
I've come from a real close to Newark, New Jersey.
It's close to New York City.
That's where I grew up.
About 15 minutes away from Newark.
And I remember before I came to this community,
my father told me about it.
He knew about the community for about a year.
And he told me every day about it.
And he prayed for me every single day that I would come here.
Because he knew that I tried going through rehabs.
I tried to detox in the hospitals and these things.
And nothing worked for me.
I go to rehab to the hospital to detox,
and I would leave with more friends and more connections.
It was easier for me to get drugs when I left.
I knew all the nurses. They knew me by name.
Another thing is the prayer.
I've never prayed before in my life. The only time I ever prayed was when there was a police car in my rear view mirror.
that he put his lights on, you know, that pulled me over, and a recipe, and he just kind of does a little bit of jail tonight.
And that was it, that was the only time I created it.
Now I can tell you every day, every day I pray, but for me personally I had to come here because I needed, I needed to change everything, my entire life, my future, I had no future, I didn't want any future.
Also with the friends, like Matt said, I never had any friends. For 15 years, the only friends I ever had were if you had money or a car.
Then you were my friend. If I had money, I usually had money and I usually had a car.
These were my friends, but as soon as it was all gone, they were gone.
And I use people too, the same way. That was just how it is, you know, when you're a drug addict.
I look through the picture, I see our kids being friends one day, you know, this is a thing that I never would have imagined two and a half years ago.
I couldn't tell you how many...
How many things have happened to me over the past two and a half years since I entered the community?
That never would have happened if I didn't come here.
If I were to stay in the hospital, like I said, I quit using drugs.
But so many other things have happened. Like I said, I made friends like this. I learned how to pray.
I learned how to say thank you to God for letting me live through all these things that I once cursed him for.
Before I came here two and a half years ago, I was a junkie from New Jersey.
How many junkies are there in New York?
Probably about a million.
if not more. And now I can say, I've been all over the world, I've been to Poland, I've been to Austria, I've been to Italy, I've been here to Bosnia and Herzegovina.
I tell my story to people from all around the world. People from Russia, people from Korea.
Not only that, I believe Mother Earth every one day is going to be a saint. I can say I've lived in her community, I have her to pray for me.
I ate lunch with her a couple of times. She stopped me in the face once, put it out of love.
I visited the Auschwitz concentration camp. We went to Poland to do a show.
That's why I have this beard. It's not because I shaved this morning and my beard does not grow that fast.
I play St. Joseph. I can say that too. That's something I never would have thought.
I've been all over the world playing St. Joseph in a play.
How could I have ever done that in a regular, in a rehab or a hospital?
You know, I have friends from all over the world now, and these are all things I just,
I joined you from New Jersey, you know, how many people can say that?
These are things I can say now because I came to the community.
Because I gave it a chance, and I was just saying that on this, if I could, we have 60 houses like Matt said all over the world, and I think I came here to talk to you guys for a reason.
And now I understand why God kept me alive all these, obviously, through all these experiences, and I think it's cool to talk to you guys.
When my father heard the testimony, just like I'm talking to you guys,
He had a little bit of hope. He saw a little bit of hope.
If I could give somebody here, or somebody that I've talked to, or to one of you guys,
to the siblings that come here, the same, that little bit of hope that my father had for me,
then how can I regret the past 15 years and all the suffering that comes along with being a drug addict?
I can't. I can't regret it. Thank you very much.
And the word up top means resurrection.
Now everybody in the picture is looking at Jesus,
except for King Solomon.
This is Elijah, King Solomon, King David.
King Solomon is looking at his father,
King David, and King David is looking at Jesus.
Mother Revere says this is the example we need to follow.
The son needs to look at the father for the example,
and the father needs to look at Jesus for the example.
We have Adam and Eve here that are being pulled out of their graves of sin, and you notice
that Jesus is grabbing them, he's pulling them up, okay, it also represents us, okay,
for sure we were.
We will go up there, we feel like Jesus yanked us out.
Eve is missing a hand there.
We have, this is the tabernacle here.
The original was in the heart of Jesus,
but one of the veers had to move down to the darkness where hell is
to show where Jesus went to come to save us.
And this is the change of sin broken by the three nails of the crucifixion.
There's four people here, I know, I only know that in the original there was only three, okay, I don't know who the three are.
But this guy is the representation of community in heaven because we've had guys that are going to pass away through the community when they're your son has gone to heaven.
That's all I know. There's a million other things about it, I don't know anything.
But there's a card in the store if you guys care to learn more about it, okay.
Thank you very much for coming.
So anyway, that's that.
Thank you.
Thank you for watching!
and
I'm not a Russian.
I'm a Russian.
I'm not going to tell you that.
Mariya appeared here, not once, you know?
And even if maybe she will not appear anymore, but it still connects people to this place.
I just, when I think about it, I remember about Lourdes, all finished a long time ago, but people still come and steal it for all your life, that's what she wants to say.
So this is the great thing, that if the father and the son would have a hobby of spirit,
then they'd come.
to be with telegrams to say something
I do know what I would like to say, but I don't.
So between I do and I don't, I don't know where do I stay.
And that is pilgrimage.
And you really don't know exactly why do you go and where do you go and what is supposed to be there happening.
And as you call something, definitely will happen.
We are created to be pilgrims.
and whatever pilgrim you undertake, whichever pilgrim is you choose.
And that pilgrimage will be your destiny.
Say, I don't play this game.
There is no such a game.
Basically, our lady is asking...
Do not allow the negatives or forces of the world to shape you.
Do not allow the world to shape you.
Do not allow the evil to poison you.
Do not walk the filigree that will destroy you.
shape you is such a way that you will be destroyed.
that in this life that you live God will be able to create you, influence you, save you.
walk with you, live your life in such a way where God will have a chance in your life.
That is basically the desire, the vision, and the build,
while there are some fears which you really didn't want to touch.
There are some selfish areas of your life
where you desperately guard your money, your time,
your relationships, you don't want those to be.
applied between stirs, is there such a thing?
And then life becomes dramatic and it's very, very wonderful when you are intelligent like this and you hang it, you don't like it.
That is the area where God is speaking with you.
It's about your whole ability to integrate the Velocal into your mind.
The tragedy of our faith is that
We believe, and we decide, the dogmas, the priorities, and the beliefs.
And in such a way, we actually become eight years old.
When I decide what God needs to be in my life, then I am making idols, and I am an atheist.
I don't believe that in a true real God, I make my idols.
That was something that Moses had to deal with, when he had to do it.
And I think today, the culture today is the culture of islands.
Every day, in the very mentality of our life, we decide what God needs to be in my life.
That is life today. The problem is with our children.
Because we don't have, we don't provide for them this dimensional reincarnation.
We say that we believe one thing, and they so come, they see totally something different.
They don't see things, and our children need things.
the incarnation of Christ. They need to see the cultural God. They see yours and mine
pilgrimage. So the sacraments became the central event of
Nothing changed since those days for nothing will change.
That is amazing gift to all of us, please.
It gave us absolute confidence.
We are now to preach operations and missionaries.
We are two groups, all united in the person of Christ, in the darkness,
and the mother will bring her family together.
Throughout my year of middle school, when I was born, I was born in a community general.
He was born in a school that would turn out why he says...
Glory be to the Father, to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit.
It feels like an ever-ending place, you always...
I discovered a new district of Mexico, like a building car.
from nowhere and I thought that oh I saw the village but I just noticed that I
didn't see anything yet
It's very nice, it's very tori, it's like nice, and they build all these, they will tell us this story and some people who live now here, it's something like community, that's very free, not so.
Uh, is it, uh, comfortable?
It's all the same.
No, no.
No problem.
It's not cool.
Oh, no.
Father Grace, come.
They're doing an interview.
Oh, good.
This beautiful young woman is, is from, from the Hungary.
Hungary.
So men is from Ukraine.
And this beautiful young woman is from Russia.
Russia. Oh, well.
Great.
Ukraine.
Ukraine, nice to meet you.
I came here to discover.
And today we went to a mess, and we please serve the mess that if you can go this Sunday
to the mess, you will...
You are a female and you are not a believer and so that's really something which came to me
because I'm on my way to I'm looking for my way so I'm not thinking here and I'm not going to church.
and not to play
and I just felt that
oh so... so...
I see that it's a bit...
That is my freedom in this, and also you've got this love, if you've got this love and imagine Mary here and gives love, that's what I hear from people here, and I see people's eyes.
Then how does it feel, and I really feel that it's a kind of paradox, and I don't know, what do you think about this?
Yes, it is freedom, it's always freedom, but not like the Islamic country where it's
by force, God always.
He always invites us to partake in his life, and if you read in John's Gospel, John chapter
6, Jesus clearly says, I am the living bread come down from heaven.
If you eat this bread, I will abide in you, and you will abide in me.
Unless you eat my flesh and drink my blood, you will not have life within you.
But if you do eat my flesh and drink my blood.
I will live in you and I will raise you up on the last day.
So, it's so important the life of grace.
The life of grace is given to us at baptism
when we were baptized, our soul was washed clean
of the original sin and God infused his grace into our soul. Now that grace maintains its
presence in our soul until we push that grace out of the soul.
So really, for us Catholics, not to get a mess on Sunday, is a serious sin.
It's a mortal sin.
and that takes away sanctifying grace from our soul.
To receive that sanctifying grace back, we need a sacramental confession.
And a lot of the way Father Sphet put it,
initially the apparitions was up there on the hill,
and it was the communists that brought it down to the church in the paradox.
And so he was God working in a beautiful way to bring us to church.
And it was through any means, through the communists of all people.
They brought the people to church. And what did they receive?
church, the sacraments. If we really think of all of those lines, we think, wow, I don't
want to let a day go without receiving Jesus in Holy Community. It's awesome. It's a great
gift.
I'm always so surprised.
You've never heard any divine voices.
It's never been as difficult for us.
Sometimes we want to run away.
The peace and the joy.
How about the world can I get in the world? Can I take away?
Patrick was so wounded in the Celtic school.
And when arsonist 14 said that who is God I heard people speaking about God. You never spoke to me, Lord God
And Patrick took a 20 dollar bill and said this my son is your God
I've seen it goes on in the church. There is no God.
I'm calling you to conversion the last time I've come to tell you that God exists, God exists.
You know sometimes you wonder oh silly. How would you have to say that?
That's the very pastes of everything. I really believe he exists.
Can I believe that I am his creature?
Then I believed that he loves me so much that he created me,
not only to be here on this short life on Earth,
but in heaven with him forever.
And I believe that heaven is my home.
My future is heaven.
You know, it's so simple.
God exists.
I mean, if we just believe that,
because if I really believe he exists...
I really believe that he loves me so much that he sent his son to die on the cross for me.
For me?
For each one individually.
Not as a group, not as a mouse.
Individually.
They will have died just for me.
Then it's not so hard to endure the little crosses that seem so impossible
If there's no meaning and go to them, if I don't have a meaning to my suffering, I don't want it.
If there's no meaning to know that my father exists, God exists.
Any permits, even things that are not present to me.
That I may be purified but at least it never asks for suffering never this is not objective
God does not want us to suffer. He doesn't say oh, yes. I want to suffer. No
This is never asked for suffering, but when my
son gives it to you
Acceptive as he did
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
It's so exciting to know that everything is meaning, suffering is meaning, life is meaning, joy is meaning.
Because love cannot be created. Love cannot be you, possible.
and give us the gift of this beautiful pilgrimage on Earth.
They come to him and choose him freely as the other was saying to the moment ago.
There's sacramental confession, sacramental means.
We can come back when we are in sin.
Special moral sin.
even the visionary one said.
But more important in seeing her with my eyes, we are all called to see over their hearts.
And in an interview with Maria's mother, who is now deceased, Maria the visionary.
I remember one interview last summer.
How do you feel about your daughter?
And the mother of God coming to your daughter for all these years
She's a very simple beautiful woman of deep faith
Did I understand the question right?
I repeat it again.
I just thought I'm sorry.
That question is very silly to me.
The mother of God is not coming to my daughter.
The mother of God has always been with us.
Had she not been with us, we would not have been able to stay alive
through the time of communism, through the time of the innovation of the Turks.
We would have been annihilated, destroyed.
The mother of God has always been with us.
My daughter has just received the grace to see her.
Are the apostles of the grace to see the divinity of Christ?
These few visionaries are chosen to be able to see.
The mother of God who says, my son and I are always with you.
Always.
The mother message is a chock thing.
Because in her new message she says,
I will love you until the gates of hell close behind you.
If she reiterates very clearly, hell exists, heaven exists, purgatory exists, and it's not God who sends us to hell.
It is we who choose hell and earth by not leaving the commandments, by not leaving what he has so much.
And when we die, we just continue. That will be a gift.
So what do we have to do?
What if you ask him for us?
You know, it's a simple word.
It's like, I really use the word signpost.
On a row via signpost.
To come here from Russia, from Hungary, Ukraine, from Split.
If signpost.
Markerska left.
Split, right, the magical ear, side pose, and we look at the side and say, ah, I can
turn because this is where I want to go.
And she says her five basic points, so simple.
The teacher said, I bow before you feel well.
Because she, before whom we kneel, to pray to, comes before us from heaven, says I bow
before your free will, and I pray of you.
Please help me to help you, because times are very serious.
If you leave my messages, you will see miracles.
And if you don't, I cannot help you.
Your children, please pray my Holy Rosary every day together.
Your children please blast everyone's new Friday.
Wars can be stopped, natural disasters averted.
You children, please read the sacred scripture every single day.
She cried when she said you've forgotten the Bible.
The living word of God.
We can't read the Bible.
The Bible is a living person.
Not a book.
It's the person of Jesus Christ.
The Bible reads us.
The children please confess at least once a month.
Your first step to conversion is confession.
Without the priest, there is a connection.
Dear children, please place the Holy Mass in the first place, at least every Sunday.
Repairs have at least one hour for this most important moment of your life, the Holy Mass.
where you receive Jesus Christ, through God and through man, my son and the Eucharist,
remaining thanksgiving after this important, most important one that we like.
Dear children, if you leave my messages,
you will see miracles.
Fall in love with my son,
who was the second of the altar.
Surrender to him.
If you live by messages, you will swear it was.
If you don't, I cannot.
And that's a beautiful thing. It's not too late. It's not too late. We're not dead yet
We have counted ours. We're not dead yet.
You can begin today.
To say yes, in the word that she taught us in my portion, here we are, mother. Please, you guide us.
Take us by the hand, guide us in the way of the will of God.
And the will of God is love and mercy itself.
and that's where all of those things are going to be.
to change it. It is not something there are a few things in your life which are beyond yourself.
You just cannot help yourself with changing something about your personality.
But God can give you this training to change it.
So maybe it could feature if you make some kind of intention,
what do you want to do it for someone or something.
I don't know.
we can just come a little bit closer to what he really felt, not exactly to what he experienced during that time because
so this mountain is about the world.
Jesus, we give you our judgment. Please help us not to judge other people. Please help
us to love them just the way they are and also the way they are.
Please help us to love ourselves, help you to love myself the way I am, not the way that other people maybe would like you to be, because I'm crazy according to your inner gender.
I know that you love it the way I am
I can't believe that it is time to pray
I have to pray and wait for all the times
I will pray to you that it is time to pray
You will not be praying and pray for all the discussions
Now you do not pray for all the songs
You will ask for all of your love
We'll go take a rest on this.
But on this image you show me that I am allowed to fail, to commit sin, but you also show
me that you, you want to help me.
To raise as you stood up and again took up your cross and continued on the way.
Thank you Jesus that you are encouraging me to take up everything that I have, all that I am, just to follow you.
To marry you, thank you. Did you stay so close to your son?
Did you never love him? Did you wear it all his time?
Right next to him. Even in the more difficult of time.
If he was your love mother, chooses you did it.
To Jesus.
The beat in the chanhayis is crissed from Sargent Jitama.
and this is the reason why we can't leave before the end of the day.
here from death and we ask you to be, to be with us.
in this hour of our death to be present.
to fight for our salvation so that we could meet in eternal joy.
This is the image of the Jesus resurrected, but this is something that is added to the
weight of the process, not more than any kind of station, but it is the result.
We believe that through Jesus, that when Jesus died, he rose again on the third day.
So, and everything, you know, Jesus said we would not have the sentence, we have no
meaning, we would not come to life again.
I hope you will not get cold.
My name is Goran.
was born and split in Croatia.
family.
But in my family, there was no faith, no prayer and no one went to church.
We'll see you guys in the next video.
Thank you very much.
Though my parents used to tell me to go to church, but I was bored there, because when you look at the Ten Commandments, it is life for an elderly lady.
My father was a sailor.
He spent more time on sea than at home.
And throughout my childhood, I was either watching TV or hanging around with friends.
I loved to watch American movies on TV.
My idols were the Hollywood actors.
Thank you.
The relationship I had with my father
I'm not sure if I can call it a relationship.
My father
As a good man, he simply didn't know how to talk.
All our relationship was...
was that he beat me.
When I was 13 years old, my mom died from leukemia.
I fell into depression because I never told my mom that I loved her.
I never kissed her, I never hugged her, though I wanted to do it a thousand times.
But I was ashamed to show my feelings, because I thought it was an expression of weakness.
Eight months after that, my father got married again.
Hatred was born in my heart.
Hatred to my father because I could not understand how he could, in such a short time, forget my mom and his wife.
Hatred to my brother because he was an alcoholic and he did not care much.
Hatred to that woman who came into our house and was acting as my mom.
At the first anniversary of her death, I borrowed a gun from my friend.
It was in 1978.
on
I came home and my father was watching soccer.
I came to him and wanted to talk to him.
He turned and slapped me on my face.
I want into my room.
put the gun to my head and shot.
Doctors said that the bullet remained in my head.
It is not possible to take it out and let the sky move along.
And that's why we're here today.
Afterwards my father came with my stepmother and told me that the bullet is out and everything was okay
But I didn't care a bit
I fell into even greater depression because I didn't.
not kill myself. When I came out of the hospital, I started taking all kinds of different pills
together with the alcohol. My friends are telling me that marijuana is simply an herb,
and this is a gift of God. When you smoke marijuana, you think better, eat better, sleep better,
no problem, you only laugh. But deep inside, I understood that marijuana is considered a drug.
In heroin, I was attracted, not to the euphoria or strength of the feelings.
In heroin, I was attracted that I could cry.
For the first time in my life, I could do good things for other people.
I could simply be good and I was not ashamed.
That's why I truly felt free.
In the beginning everything was good.
I had a little money and a little bit of drugs.
And the feeling was very strong.
But the time was passing by and I was in need of more heroin
and my feelings became weaker and weaker.
you can see this paradox
Thank you very much.
My father all his life worked very well.
money and material things.
But it took me one month to steal everything and sell it.
I told my father I was waiting for you for 20 years.
We have nothing to talk about. You live your life and I will live mine.
At night, three policemen came to our house and brought heroin.
with them.
They came into my room and dropped it and said...
You are a dealer and we are going to put you in prison.
They only wanted to help me by thinking logically if they put me to prison for five to six months.
Thank you very much.
I would get scared and would change they threw me in prison
I learned there how to steal better, how to mix drugs better, so that they could give
stronger effects, and which things would sell better.
So when I came out of prison, I had more knowledge than before.
In the city of Split, the psychic ward was located underground.
And I had my own room and all day I was watching TV
While doctors were giving me pills and did their therapies, I was perfectly settled.
It looked like the holidays. I didn't even have to steal.
My friends were coming every day and through the window they were giving me alcohol and drugs.
One evening I ran away to the dance club, still dressed in my psychic ward clothing.
Then the police came in and returned me back to the hospital.
Doctors saw that they couldn't help me and threw me out.
At home again there were problems, agony, corolling, fits, blood.
My father was looking for help and his friend was giving him advice.
Marco, why don't you go find him a job?
So I began working, but pretty soon it was obvious it was a big mistake because I stole half of the warehouse.
So I borrowed money from everybody and never gave back anything.
One time I asked my boss to give me money, and he got very upset because I hadn't returned him the money from the last time.
He began to be angry with me.
Yeah
And I got mad, and I took a knife and I chased him around the warehouse.
They understood that everything is not so simple and they threw me out.
My father was speaking to me from the closed doors.
Listen to me, my son.
Thank you.
between home and the street you chose the street so please go and live on the
street and one day when you decide to be a man come back and as a family you
don't try to help you
Should we show them?
Yeah.
So I returned to my old way of life.
That's who I was and what I wanted.
Nobody and no one.
One time I woke up in the forest.
My mouth was full of flies, and one winter evening in January I was laying in a broken
house and I began thinking about my family, about my childhood.
And the more I was thinking about it the harder it was and I understood that I was at fault
And nobody else
And you know what happened, I began to cry and pray the Hail Mary, because this prayer
was left in my head from the time that I was forced to go to church.
So all night I was praying, my mother of God, please, I'm asking you, take me to yourself
or stretch your hand towards me so I can change my miserable life.
Thank you very much.
I cannot go on anymore.
One day I was sitting in a park.
I was looking through the park and I saw
woman walking around. She was looking, and it looked like she was looking for somebody.
She came to me directly when she saw me. She told me her story. She was the mother of
a drug addict who had spent time in prison. She hired a lawyer, and through the lawyer,
was able to lead, present, and go to the Chanakolo community.
I love you, I love you.
Then she asked her son if he had any friends she could help, then she told me,
you need to go to Medjikoria.
I asked, what is this?
This is a small town in Bosnia, Herzegovina, where the mother of God is appearing,
and she is waiting for you.
She will help you.
So I thought, woman, I am a schizophrenic, but you are even worse than me.
When I came to Magigoria, the first thing I did was steal two bottles of wine from the store.
I got drunk and while walking through Magigoria, I faced the gates where the sign was written,
Community Chanakolo.
Thank you.
The crisis I lived through for the first month was indescribable, but from the crisis nobody
died yet, so I didn't die either.
I was not going to become a priest, so why do I need to pray three rosaries a day, I
thought.
I did not see any point in prayer.
I told them I had no problem with prayer, I had problems with heroin, and why do I have
to break these stones?
I don't have problems with stones, I have problems with heroin.
One day it was 40 degrees outside, and my guardian angel was telling me,
Do you want to do work?
No, I said.
Okay, no problem.
Go and sit by the shade and we will work for you.
Super I thought, but as I was sitting in the shade cooling off and the guys are digging
ditches working, the stones are flying out of it, they were all sweaty and wet.
I was looking at them and wondering are these people normal, but they felt super, they were
laughing and singing.
Yes, I miss you. I'm pretty. I'm pretty.
to wake up at night. To pray.
I kneeled down, but I had no faith.
I thought it would love to be reconciled to my father,
but I would probably die before it would be possible.
Of all that I have told you, I haven't even described 3% of the evil that I have done to my father,
to my family, and to the people around me.
Thank you very much, thank you very much.
After a few days a man came in and said
Pilgrims have come from Croatia. Please show them the community.
The first one I saw was my father.
That was the hardest moment of my life, because the feeling of guilt and shame I was feeling I couldn't describe.
I had no strength to look him in the eyes.
I was debating with myself whether to run away or to stay, run away or stay.
But I was running all the time and I couldn't do it any longer.
Everything happened in 10 seconds. My whole life flashed before my eyes.
My father saw that I was having a hard time, and he came to me.
He embraced me and cried, and I began to cry too.
anything, we just wept. I told my father, when you return home, please begin to pray
for me with your wife. Do you know what he answered me? My son, we have prayed for you
for a long time already.
Maybe everything was supposed to happen this way so that faith and prayer would
come back to our family. But of course maybe it's not the case but that's how
I wanted to imagine it so that I could accept my past.
So, my past would be meaningful.
This meaning gave me strength to kill me.
I have no reason to come.
out of community if I didn't have a job.
The one priest told me no problem. I have a job for you a very good job
You will be a director.
I thought, director, this is cool.
A former drug addict comes out of community and becomes a director.
You're not compared, huh? Yeah, okay, we did.
So a few days later, I met him again and asked him which job I would have.
You will be cleaning toilets. What did you think?
Now you can believe me or not, I don't care.
Bye-bye!
When I saw this beautiful young woman, I knew that she would become my wife.
I cannot describe this to you. I just knew this I became
very nervous I had no time
And I was supposed to sit in the bathroom waiting for it.
So I began to pray.
I found out who this pretty woman was and so the problems began.
She was from Czech Republic and didn't speak Croatian.
She was 13 years younger than me and had never dated before.
She came to Magigoria to pray because she was discerning her vocation.
Thank you very much.
So this is her, and now me.
I'm covered in tattoos and cuts.
I am a schizophrenic, an epileptic, with a bullet in my head.
and Hepatitis C.
Is that when I smiled I had only three teeth in my mouth?
I was depressed for 20 days.
After 8 months, nothing changed.
We didn't move even one millimeter ahead.
Thank you very much.
I thought, something must be changed.
She told me, no, no, no.
And I told her, yes, yes, yes.
I saw that I could win, even though she was resisting,
until she said, OK, let's try.
We're just going to give it a chance.
But she made one condition, that we would not have sex,
or kiss, or do anything physical,
before the sacrament of match money,
if that would ever happen.
Thank you.
She was afraid and did not know what to do.
She was afraid to marry me and take this responsibility for the rest of her life.
From the Bibles she received the word while she was praying, remain here.
This is your way.
Do not be afraid.
I am with you.
This was the answer.
that she could marry me.
We received the sacrament of matrimony in June of 2000.
Thank you very much.
Our eldest daughter is Lucia, eight and a half.
Then our son Luca, he is six years old.
Anna is four years old.
We have little Mark who is...
six months.
And if somebody says that something is impossible,
believe me.
With God, everything is possible.
Sometimes we think we can solve our problems quickly and by ourselves.
But now I know that God knows better.
Oh, yes, that's not the book.
It's not cutting your knife, will you?
It's not.
It's just as nice to both of you.
He knows the best time and the best things face
Thank you very much.
Thank you.
It comes to my sickness. It is very interesting.
From the moment I arrived in Magigoria, I have never had epileptic seizures.
All paranoia
Fear in my head is gone
The only thing I'm afraid of is this check.
Hi, I'm Nicky.
Hi, my love.
Let's go!
I'm going to play a lot!
Let's go!
Bye-bye!
I'm coming!
I'm going to play a lot!
Let's go!
Thanks for watching!
Who's speaking English?
I speak English.
Do you communicate?
Go ahead.
It's like...
Sometimes, sometimes I check my language too.
But when I want, then he understands me.
So I have to speak Croatian.
When my mother was there and was here and after came home she told me about messages,
about operations but it was nothing for me and after a year she died and first time I was
You're looking at your documents, your areas, and it was difficult time in our family.
I had free browsers and we were in big conflict.
And it was so hard for me because mothers there did nothing.
Nothing happened, nothing changed.
That's so horrible.
If it changes nothing, what can change?
Yeah, I understand.
And there are no pieces, there are no pieces, absolutely.
One great eye opens, uh, very old.
and
I was sure a little paper and it was a message of our ladies.
I understood it, but for me it was when I had a dear children, because I call it being
peace.
You are in my hands.
I love you.
I miss you.
You know?
This was not something.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I just absolutely have a feel from this moment.
It's just the most important message is about peace and it's a concern that I can't deny to her, but that's what it's meant to be.
Okay.
Massage.
Drop it.
Okay.
I'm my mother and this kind of man.
You
And it was, I'm sure, the message would occur.
He said, his disciples, I tell you, if anyone openly declares himself for me in the presence of men,
the Son of Man will be cleared for himself for him in the presence of God's angel.
But the man who just owns me in the presence of men will be his own in the presence of God's angel.
Everyone who says a word against the Son of man will be forgiven, but he who
blasphemes against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven.
When they teach you before sin dogs and mangerings and authorities, do not worry about how to defend yourself or what to say.
Because when the time comes, the Holy Spirit will teach you what you must say.
I have not seen human ears have not heard.
Human heart has not imagined such things as God has prepared her bones.
who love him, sick old sats in another place.
In from the spirit of Him who raised Jesus Christ from the dead,
He was living in you, that He who raised Jesus Christ from the dead
will be obliged to cure our bodies through His spirit, living in you.
Take this for you, and drink from this is the cup of my blood,
the blood of only you and everlasting God.
It will be shed in the water and the water, so that sins may be forgiven.
Through this in memory of all,
I do also bless you for the love of the sun and the time of the Holy Spirit.
It will be very strange now to go back to Budapest and to the completely opposite line.
actually yeah and now actually now we go to Sarewe in the evening the friends are waiting for me with
rakya and the things like alcohol bag here and there they are smoking you buy a rosary for now
no we actually bought rakya for the cuckoo
Thank you.
I have never heard of a black tree.
My name is Toran.
I'm here for the next one.
I'm not going to eat.
It's good.
I don't know.
It's good.
I don't know.
Come on.
I was in New York City in Korea but I was just a little shy in Korea and I felt like this is unique
We had to have a lot of cultural ideas with these people
Before I was living like I produced everything
I was doing everything
creating everything by myself and now it's a bit of an invitation because I am just like sitting next to the river and the river brings me some
then I get the invitation from Natalia to come here
I have like some rational thinking and irrational feeling
like if I have to go or not, if it's time to go or not because maybe I came for another reason
So what was the most important thing from here during the week before you?
Now I am just in the way of thinking.
I faced with something which I have still to do in my life.
I mean, it's connected with God, it's connected with also with myself.
There is still some questions which are my questions and I have to find the answer for this.
And it's not like you come to the place and you got the, like, opa!
And it's a passageway!
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