"I’ll still read Catholic news sometimes, but far less than I used to, mainly because I don’t have the heart to hear more bad news, and because the temptation to despair is all too real. But in the middle of the night, when the baby is crying and it’s my turn to rock him and my phone is the only thing that will keep me awake, I’ll read until I can’t stand it anymore, and then remind myself that God is in control and His plan is far better for me than anything I could come up with. Even so, fear and doubt seem to swirl about me like a cold fog in the night. God forgive me, but I’m not holy enough to have perfect trust..."