@Randall Norman -Thank you for your great comment directed to me. Much of what you say is true. I suppose I have seen suffering in 2 relatives that I definitly would not want to suffer the same type of thing. One has had cancer 3x and probably will not survive for long..... all this treatment (pointless suffering) when it will end up badly in the end for him anyway. I don't know how his family pays for it all! I'm not a Saint, (of course not!!
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), so I don't have such a holy outlook on the idea of suffering for Christ as perhaps you do, or some of our Saints. On the other extreme, sorry if I sound shocking, but I do remember reading about some Saints, who actually caused their own suffering deliberately ( by not eating, not sleeping, engaging in self-torture as a penance) etc. Sick stuff. Really! Who in their right mind would deliberately cause themselves harm, to suffer for Christ? God is not happy with that time of thing. There were some Saints who welcomed suffering and ill health to suffer for Christ....and did not seek medical assistance. That's is not rational either. So, I hope I never have any serious illnesses, but if I do, I will try to bear it patiently for Christ if I was in that position,.....but I would never welcome it, or seek it out. I consider that to be seriously disturbed, even if they were saints.